Psalm 46:10 “Be still and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.”
Be Still. These two words can be some of the hardest for me to live out in the midst of a life that is fast and constantly moving. I love to be continuously going. My brain seems to race at 100 miles an hour, 24 hours a day and 7 days a week. I love to be with people and I love to be busy, with many different things to juggle. That’s the way God made me! Lately though, I am realizing that God made us to rest. God made all of us (and even me) to function properly only after a time of rest. On the seventh day of creation, He rested! Sometimes, resting is hard for me to do, but I am in a place in my life where rest is the thing I need to do most.
For the last six months I have been living in Southern Germany and completing the Bible school program offered through Torchbearers International. The last 6 months have been incredibly full of teachings, events and constant life in community. Needless to say, it has been a very very busy 6 months. For me and for many others, it was an amazing experience and I was very blessed by the relationships I made during this time. About two weeks ago, I came home after a crazy adventure and I was really excited to see my family and figure out my next step. As soon as I got back to Colorado, I felt a pit at the bottom of my stomach. I came back to a place that was completely familiar, but at the same time, extremely empty. I came home in the beginning of April and I quickly realized how lonely I was. I don’t live with 106 other students anymore and my days are filled by following my mom around everywhere she goes. I was going crazy in the middle of this new and much slower way of living. I don’t have any commitments right now, and that is really hard for me.
Why God? Why is this time so hard for me? Why is the quiet and calm so hard for me to handle? I think we all ask God this question. It might not be the exact question that I have been struggling with but I think it’s safe to assume that all of us struggle with being in the place God has us right now. It can be so difficult to be in a place of transition, and God has us in those places so often.
Isaiah 55:8-9 reminds me that “His thoughts are nothing like our thoughts, and His ways are far beyond anything I could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the Earth, so His ways are higher than my ways and His thoughts higher than my thoughts.”
Something I have realized over the last week is how necessary these places are. I came back from a place where I was constantly learning and growing and moving and changing. I thought that I came back and all the learning and growing just stopped, but it didn’t. I’m learning different things now. I’m learning the importance of being still. I’m learning to enjoy the quiet times that God gives me so that I may have a chance to slow down and hear Him. I am learning to find the joy in the midst of the journey and the meaning in the mean-time. I have felt really lonely since returning home and I think all of us feel lonely sometimes. God is constantly reminding me that I am not alone.
John 14:16 says,
“And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Advocate, who will never leave you.”
In the Greek language, advocate is translated from the word “paraclete.” Paraclete means counselor, comforter, advisor and encourager. Without this time of still and slow transition, I may have not realized that when I am alone and when everything else goes away, He remains. He is my paraclete. When I feel alone, I can lean on Him. When I am frustrated in the midst of the place I am right now, I can run to Him with that frustration.
Ephesians 6:18 says,
“Pray in the spirit at all times and on every occasion.”
Even in the places where we don’t want to be, our paraclete is there. He sees you, He knows you’re struggling and He knows you’re just itching to move on to the next chapter, but He also loves you too much to let you do whatever you want to do. He is guiding you as you take every step. You are in this place right now because He knows you even better than you know yourself and He knows you need rest. As hard as it is for me to enjoy this time of rest, I am learning to grasp every still moment I can, because God is preparing me for something that is too big for my small mind to understand, and that is such a beautiful thing.
Ephesians 3:20-21 says,
“Now all glory to God, who is able, through His mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.”
About the Author
My name is Rebekah Ralph, I am 18 years old and I live in Colorado. I love people and being busy doing different things. Two weeks ago, I got back from living in Southern Germany for six months, where I attended Bible college through Torchbearers International. Here is a bit of what I’m learning right now.