The squeaking of hospital beds being wheeled through the halls causes my anxiety to heighten.
With each surgeon dressed in powder blue scrubs entering the waiting room, I look at with a piercing gaze, sitting on the edge of my seat expectantly.
It was here, as I awaited my mom’s diagnosis of potential ovarian cancer where I uncovered my inherent inability to be “still.”
In the in-between, the uncertainty, God was asking me: Will you be “still” before me? Will you trust me? Am I enough?
Rarely do we hear a commandment that does not have an action attached to it, but rather a lack of action, a surrendering. In the most Abba Father like way God commands his children to be still. But let’s take a look at the entire verse:
“Be still, and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!” – Psalm 46:10 (ESV)
This call to intimacy of being still and remaining in His presence is from creating space to meet with God, understanding his greatness, and thus is catalytic to completing Christ’s mission.
So many times we think if we just pray more, fast more, journal everyday, or become an expert at the spiritual disciplines we will “arrive” in our faith. When many times those spiritual disciplines exist in order to create space to be still and meet with our Creator.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take
my yoke upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light” –Matthew 11:28-29
In Greek, burden is translated to baros equating to a heaviness, weight, and trouble. Whereas phortion in Greek means a burden you can handle and is carried by an individual. This phortion is similar to a military backpack.
God is saying be still or enough! Stop! And know or acknowledge that God’s mighty acts for his people will bring him universal recognition.
God has asked that we give a burden our baros, a weight we cannot bear in exchange for Christ’s burden or phortion that we can handle.
In the hours awaiting the prognosis, I surrendered my mom’s results to the Lord. I wanted to have control of the situation, but quickly realized only God could take control of this, only he can bear this burden. A burden I often try to carry myself. In order to trust him, I have to know him, and this comes from being still before him.
Like the story of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego in Daniel 3, these men had such incredible faith for they knew their God.
“If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us
from it, and he will deliver us from Your Majesty’s hand. But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up” –Daniel 3: 17-18
They knew God could save them from the fiery furnace, and knew even if he didn’t his purpose would still be accomplished.
I have come to realize I am often a great “doer” but I am terrible at “being.” I busy myself with good works, and often forget to give my burdens to the One who can carry it and create space to be still in His presence and grow in my intimate knowledge of him.
As the surgeon came into the waiting room she had a combined look of surprise, awe, and joy. She told my family and myself that to the disbelief of the operating staff, my mom did not have ovarian cancer.
It was a miracle.
This journey of the unknown being laid before my known God, gave incredible peace from this stillness in knowing who He is. No matter what happens in life his purposes are good and remain constant.
By being still before him, we can have unexplainable peace in the chaos of life.
Sisters and Daughters of the King, remember in your daily lives that you have an Abba Father who loves you and desires for you to know him intimately which comes from being still in his presence and creating space to meet with your Creator.
About the Author
Hello there! My name is Brooke Biddle, and I am currently a senior Public Relations and Journalism student at California Baptist University. I am an imperfect but avid follower of Jesus Christ
If you were to peek into my life on a weekday you would find me sipping a freshly brewed pot of loose leaf tea, while editing or writing stories for the Pursuit Magazine campus publication. Other days you may find me hosting events for the students I mentor as a FOCUS Intern.
Weekends include time with family, friends, exploring LA, and a yoga session or two.
Food for thought:
Meraki is a greek word meaning: to do something with soul, creativity, or love, to put something of yourself into your work.
For me, to work at something as working for the Lord not just people, is like meraki, it means pouring my full self into what I do to glorify God.
If I were to create a mission statement for myself it would be: “Selflessly serve others and relentlessly love God.”