After my son Judah was born, I kind of had a little bit of a dream crisis. There I was holding my perfect little guy and I realized that he was the embodiment of my deepest dreams come true. He was there. That dream was done, in a good, wonderful, perfect way of course, but done and in that same good way, so were a bunch of my other dreams.
Within that same year, I had graduated from college, Scott and I had bought a house and then we had had our first child. As I looked down at Judah, the icing on the cake, of all of that newness and accomplishment that year, I realized that I had only managed to dream this far in my life.
Judah’s newborn pictures.
Photo Credit: Keturah Mayer
As a little girl, I knew that I wanted to get my degree. I knew that I wanted to get married and have kids. I knew that I wanted to own a home, and there I was at 22 having achieved that stuff. Sure it felt good. It felt great, but at the same time, I was kind of left floundering a little bit because, for some reason, I had never really thought beyond those goals and I found myself wondering, “Well, now what?”
What were my new dreams?
Have you ever had a moment of self-reflection like that? A moment where you open that treasure box where you keep your daydreams and goals and realize that it’s kind of empty? Like when you reach into the treasure box at the Dentist’s office as a kid and all that’s left is those cheap whistles that don’t work and a few bent stickers with teeth on them?
If you have, then I’m talking to you. I know how you’re feeling; a little sad, a little lost, a little restless. Or maybe you don’t even realize that you’re at this place, that your dreams are a little non-existent and your vision is running dry. It might seem like it’s OK to dwell here, to ride on the coattails of your former ambition or dreams, but I have to tell you, it’s not.
It’s not OK because it’s dreams that drive us to achieve, and achieve we must. We need to be impacting the world for the Kingdom of God, and doing things well is what helps us take ground for him.
Maybe that’s in your home. You can dream about being a wife, a mother, a sister, a daughter that impacts generations and shows selfless love day in a day out. Maybe it’s in your work place. You can dream about working hard and getting that promotion so you can have a greater audience to share God’s love, so you can sow more into His Kingdom, so you can mentor those below you and affect their lives for the better. Maybe it’s in your neighborhood, school, community. You can dream about making it better and safer and a reflection of the heart of God. Or maybe it’s even bigger more far reaching than those. These places hold the fertile ground for impact and dreams. They are your sphere, your people. What are your dreams for them?
I believe that we all have a purpose and a reason for being here and part of that purpose is hidden in our dreams.
And I think our dreams are hidden in what we love.
You see, after I had my time of self-reflection, I decided that I would start dreaming again. I would dream dreams about my kid’s future, about my marriage, about the life of my family. I started dreaming things for myself, too, and that’s why I started writing again. Why? Because those were the things that I loved. That’s where my passion and ability led me and that was where I had influence. And now, because I’m dreaming, it’s in these places that I have direction and intentionality. I have fulfillment and a greater passion than I had before.
What do you love? Where does your passion and ability intersect? Where do you have influence? The answer to these questions might help you figure out what your next dream is.
If you are looking for a new dream, a new goal, something to conquer and stick your stake in the ground with, that might just be the urging of the Holy Spirit to go. To do something, talk to someone, go somewhere. Why? Because it’s through our actions and ambition and persistent display of love that the Kingdom takes ground.
Dream new dreams this week. Be brave enough to hope and then take steps towards making it happen. Sweet dreams, ladies!