There are countless days when I lose my wonder. There are days I get lazy and complacent. It just so happens that on some of those days I hear a worship song that lights a fire in my soul! Have you heard the worship song Wonder by Bethel Music? If not, go ahead and look it up when you get a chance. These lyrics have struck a chord with me lately…
“May we never lose our wonder
Wide eyed and mystified
May we be just like a child
Staring at the beauty of our King”
So simple, but so beautiful. Think about the last time you saw someone in wonder and awe. I see this all the time these days as Liam is discovering all kinds of new things! The child LOVES flowers. Loves them. I have some silk flowers as part of my kitchen table centerpiece, and Liam loves to look at them while he eats. The other day I gave him one to play with and the child was AMAZED. Dare I say, I saw some wonder in his eyes. Not to mention the biggest smile!
Last week I saw a bit of wonder in his eyes as he saw real DUCKS at the park while we were taking a stroll. He would gaze at these ducks. Mystified by their presence! Then in true 1-year-old fashion, he would “quack” back at them. He stared them DOWN! Yet, that wonder in his eyes was precious to witness.
I have been thinking about the last time I was left in awe of Jesus. In awe like my sweet son was at the flowers and ducks. A time when I gazed at Him, filled with wonder. Last week I began struggling with some things I thought I’d gotten a grip on. Something that puts a wedge between the Lord and me. I began to cry out to Jesus, praying through Psalm 37. Over and over in this passage, David writes, “Fret not yourself…” and “Do not fret.” I hung onto the words in verses 3-5:
“Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.”
That last part gripped me! “Trust in him, and he will act…” So, a friend and I prayed EXPECTING God to bring someone into my life who would confirm I wasn’t losing my mind and that who has experienced the same situation. I promise you not two hours after I began praying this, OUT OF THE BLUE (meaning…by the Lord’s beautiful provision), I ran into a friend. So absolutely randomly, I casually mentioned I’d been struggling, and she went into telling me about her experience with the SAME struggle. She told me she hardly talks about it with anyone, but she felt like she needed to tell me about it. She assured me that I wasn’t crazy or alone (unprompted, too, might I add). I began to WEEP. I went home and fell on my face before Jesus. Completely in wonder!
Some days it feels like our prayers hit the ceiling. Some days Satan tempts you to believe the Lord just might not care that much about you. Some days the Word seems vague, confusing, and rote. On those days, push through, my sisters! Pray EXPECTING God to hear you. Pray against Satan’s schemes. Pray God’s Word, believing it’s true and alive. And expect God to work! The day I actually practiced those things, I saw God. I experienced Him and His power! I saw His love for me and that He cares about what I struggle with. I fell on my face before Him in WONDER. I gazed upon Him, mystified, taken back and broken. So, I beg you to remember….When was the last time you experienced WONDER like a sweet child discovering all things new? When have you experienced wonder of Jesus?
May we never lose our wonder, sisters!
“Many, LORD my God, are the wonders you have done, the things you planned for us. None can compare with you; were I to speak and tell of your deeds, they would be too many to declare.” Psalm 40:5