I sat in my backyard a couple of days ago soaking up the gorgeous, warm sunshine. The sky was a crisp, light blue. There wasn’t even a glimpse of a cloud. There was a slight breeze blowing…a perfect day to sit outside and soak up some sunshine and spend time with Jesus!
I turned up a worship station on Pandora, and a particular song stopped me dead in my tracks. You know those songs that bring tears to your eyes? The ones that touch your heart so deeply that you can’t help but WORSHIP…you can’t help but be completely humbled by our magnificent Creator. Well, it happened right then and there in the midst of throwing my energetic (and crazy) dog her Frisbee.
Crank up the music…
I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
Andi’s mind…(the ramblings that hardly ever stop in a woman’s mind) came to a complete HALT. “This is me,” I thought. An older man from our church, who has walked with the Lord for many years once said, “What have you ever learned from talking?” But really. Oftentimes I pray and pray, but I hardly ever sit and listen to the Lord.
The music continues…
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all..No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?
The tears flow. I’m extremely guilty of putting our great powerful God into a teeny box. Never expecting the marvelous things He can do. I don’t always live with this healthy fear of God. I don’t always live with such a reverence for Him that it impacts everything I do – decisions I make, daily tasks, time I spend with Him. If He touched my face, would I even know Him? Do I take that time to know the depths of Him that I’d know His very touch or gaze?
The music continues…
So What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
So What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of this amazing, marvelous CREATOR? The one who literally spoke my being into motion. I love this picture of the ocean…the endless, vast, marvelous mysterious water. There’s no way a human has chartered every inch of the ocean. It’s far too great. Our God is like this. He’s so huge, mysterious, great, and mighty that we’ve just stood on the shore of who He truly is. What do we know of this HOLY, matchless, perfect God we serve?
I sat on my blanket in the sunshine completely humbled. In awe. Amazed. I can’t even touch the glory and greatness of our God. Here I stand, on the shore along your ocean. Consume me, dear Jesus!
lyrics by Addison Road