I love moments I can recount when I know the Lord sent me a message at the exact moment I needed it. This past week has been a week of growth for me. Sometimes situations bombard my thoughts, grab a hold of me like a leech, and plague me with fear to the point of exhaustion. Almost to the point I cannot think of anything else. Have you ever experienced a moment like that?
When my thoughts go wild, I know Satan is doing his best to distract me from our Father. He whispers in my ear, “you really can’t trust Him. Is He even there?” I literally have to come to a screeching halt and pray for Jesus to take my thoughts captive. This past week a bit of mommy-worry crept in. Ya know…I worried before having Liam, but mommy-worry has been even more intense in my life. I would rather anything in the world happen to me than to my baby. Friday morning I woke up with worry crashing over me like a wave, ready to take me under. I looked at my phone, and my roommate from college had sent me a message. Sadly, I haven’t talked to her in a couple of months, but for whatever reason (God’s guidance) she felt like she needed to send me a picture of her Jesus Calling book from that day. Accompanied with this message, “I needed to hear this today. Praying it is as encouraging to you as it was to me.”
Little did she know, this was exactly what I needed in that moment. Here’s what the blurb said,
“Worship me only. Whatever occupies your mind the most becomes your god. Worries, if indulged, develop into idols. Anxiety gains a life of its own, parasitically infesting your mind. Break free from this bondage by affirming your trust in Me and refreshing yourself in My presence. What goes on in your mind is invisible, undetectable to other people. But I read your thoughts continually, searching for evidence of trust in Me. I rejoice when your mind turns toward Me. Guard your thoughts diligently; good thought-choices will keep you close to Me.”
This scripture was at the bottom…
“He is not afraid of bad news; his heart is firm, trusting in the Lord.” Psalm 112:7
I burst into crocodile tears. This could not have come at a better time. Later that afternoon as I sat down to spend some time with Jesus, I opened my Jen Hatmaker devotional book, and she spoke about mommy-worry…EXACTLY what I needed to read.
I sat in awe of Jesus for a while. Completely astonished that He truly cares that much about me. Sometimes I believe the lie that He’s a little too busy to deal with me. He continually lays that lie to rest. He cares about my heart, my thoughts, my fears, my worries. He loves me deeply; He will speak to me in the midst of my plaguing fear. And that, my friends, is a day I will write about to put in my blessings jar. I’m astonished by our King!
When have you experienced a moment when you KNOW God was speaking to you? I’d love to hear your stories! And if you think about it, please pray for our little family this week. Thank you for being such an encouraging community of women!